Some where in all of life's insanity, I've chosen to not believe in you.
I don't and I can't, and I already knew.
I feel spent.
And I am just waiting.
Passing.
Time.
Bruised.
Some where in the tapestry of my life, I chose the quiet dark.
I do and I can, because I'm too numb to see.
I feel sick.
And I am just waiting.
Passing.
Time.
Confused.
Some where in the depths of my soul, I am forever empty.
I am. I am. Forever is eternity.
I feel faithless.
And I am godless.
Passing.
Time.
Painfully.
Knock on my door.
The pit of your stomach;
can't breathe kind.
Knock, knock, knock, knock.
Officer,
You have my heart written on your paper;
and you knocked the breath out of me.
Breathe, breathe, remember to breathe.
Call, call, call, call.
Phones, crying, nightmare.
My baby girl's heart stopped.
Run, run, run, run.
Need to get to her.
Go. Gone. Drive.
So far to be with her.
Waiting, waiting, waiting, wait.
See her. Heart drops.
Wish it was my heart that stopped instead.
The sounds, the sights...
Feeling, wishing, hoping, dying.
Nothing changes.
She is not who you paint her to be! She is not!
She is my daughter!
My sunlight. My heart. My soul. MY child. My baby girl!
The nightmare never ends.
Repeat, repeat, repeat, repeat.
Her last breath,
echoes in the now emptiness of my soul.
And I cannot forget.
I am empty.
Never whole.
I will love you forever. R.I.P. <3